God's painting

This is the place I have called home for the last 18 months, Scottburgh, Kwa Zulu Natal. This is a picture of the main beach.. Having spent the last 8 years on the Western Cape coastline, it took me a while to stop comparing this place to the unspoilt splendour and rugged beauty of the afore mentioned areas. This picture after uploading it recently to my PC from mobile, took my breath away, and made me realise how me pre-conceived judgment and diseased sense of always wanting to compare stuff to the past, almost made me miss out on what's right in front of me - GOD'S PERFECT CREATION!

My special hideaway...

The inhabitants of this cave was a gay religious fanatic that followed the Voice of God from Vereeniging, in that he'd be led to the promised land - finding this abandoned cave - with living quarters and running water!!! Two meth junkies that ran away from a treatment centre not far away and a vagrant whom I sat with smoking huge marijuana joints rolled in newspaper, who told me his whole lifestory spanning 60 odd years.. from birth through school, the apartheid era, the Angolan war and the circumstances that led to him giving up on society....

The light at the end of the tunnel...

This, as with the previous picture, was taken on the magical Garden Route of Southern Africa. The picture over the Knysna Lagoon was taken in an opiate induced haze as with this one... This one is very symbolic though as the tunnel leads (train not running anymore) through the mountain to a mystical mountain grotto converted into a tea garden which is inhabitated by vagrants and kept in pristine condition! Nevertheless the light I was searching for so long in my life has always been within my reach, the stepping through towards it, was up to me... This cave is in the Kaaimans Pass in Wilderness...

Mobile Phone Photography

Image taken with Nokia 6680 at sunset over the lagoon...

Symbol of my life to date... Many rebirths!

The Phoenix bird and the legend thereof - that after a period of time (500 years mythically) it burns itself and it's nest. I believe it symbolizes my journey to date... I have risen from the ashes of my decisions many times to take flight again...

Just for today, through the program of AA and the Grace of God I never have to crash and burn again....

A new way of life through the rooms of the Bill W fellowship of AA.

Storm Models Portfolio - 2003.......
This picture signifies to me health and vitality. In less than a year from the date this photo was taken, I would find myself weighing less than 70kg's in hospital, recovering from a massive overdose - waking up from a 5-day, semi-comatic state... It took several more series of hospitilisations, treatment centres etc for me to lay down my tools of self-destruction and choose not only life, but life in abundance!